You know how you agree to do something because it seemed like a good idea at the time and it was a long way off and then it's a couple of days away and suddenly it seems like not so much.
I am supposed to be attending a 'farewell assembly' on Monday 22May afternoon. Having second thoughts. I guess I'm doing it for others not for myself. It really is the last thing I want to do. I'm suppose I'm hoping for some sort of closure at best ... at worst I'll get fed. So long as I'm not expected to say too much - because I might just say too much.
There's part of me that wants to 'rage against' the whole unfairness of it all, it's not like I'm the first person this has happened to and although I may hope to the contrary I won't be the last. It's surprising how quickly you can outlive your perceived usefulness and although the management have a responsibility to 'help' it's really just lip service. I have to doubt the wisdom of a system where when you fail an observation you get another observation - yay!
That and I'm basically paranoid.
