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You think you know a person, yourself, and then find that you don’t!  Apparently though I have never seen it, but then I guess I wouldn’t, people tip toe around me.  Adults not children!  Children skip!!

Now I like to think of myself as fairly easy going.  I’m not good at small talk I know, mainly because I’m not sure if I really care.  Oops!  I do but …

But that is not how it is.  I am quite difficult to read.  I am a mystery wrapped in an enigma in a booby-trapped surprise box!  Can’t see it myself but I suppose I wouldn’t! Being difficult doesn’t stop people pinching my stuff!

The ironic (?) thing is that the harder I try to be helpful and make a positive contribution to, say, a staff meeting the more likely I am to mess up and end up offending people.  In fact the couple of times I have been censured for have been those times when I thought I’d really properly engaged and contributed.  How wrong was I?  I must have a very sarcastic voice or something.  If you can fake sincerity you have got it made!

The problem is I don’t know what to do about it. 

My dilemma is that if I contribute to a staff meeting I am seen to be subversive and if I keep my head down and stay quiet I am seen to be difficult.  Not sure there is a middle path?  I guess I could wait until I am asked to contribute and buy snowboarding gear for Satan or I could…?  See what I mean?

I remember a certain teacher at St Andrew’s nicknamed the boy wonder who once on a night out drinking asked drunk people what people really thought of him?  It did not end well!